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This weekend has been awesome as planned :]] i’m really happy about that. lately i have been spending soo much time with friends! and getting my grades up! im growing up! and not talking to people who i dont need in my life who have just ruined it in the past. i’m happy. i can honestly say im happy :DD

Last night was okayy…scary movie night fail. but we did watch mean girls <33 and played a game called ninja spies. it was sooo funnn. we ended up going to bed though around 4am and then carissa’s mom woke us up at 7 o.O we were soo tired. but josh was soo cute in his little basketball game ;D oh! and then when jessica-carissa's sister fell asleep, carissa drew all over her with gel pen and then jessica saw it in the morning and got all pissy. it was HILARIOUS ^_^

So today went by pretty slow..but i did go shopping with tiffany!! :]] I got such a cute outfit for the swing dance thursday <33 and she is going to curl my hair and we are going to get ready together and everything before the swing dance <33

Then finally, tomorrow. Gonna go shopping with my sissterr in law. To the glendale galeria :DD hehehe. I think i will look for a cute fashionable outfit for jessica’s partie(s)! OH snap! i gotta buy her b.d present <3 ^_^ haha.

Well. I’m happy. Life’s Great. I hope i’m not jinxing it again like last time.
but my grades are coming back up. my friends are great, and i cant wait til my two sweet 16’s..and jessica’s two sweet 16’s. I love my best friend and my friends! <3 :)

Late.

Haha. a little late. but thats okay.
MY schedule and classes and FRIENDS are kinda amazzing :] im soo happy w/ it all.
Per. 2-English (Jayme Tan. Richard Ferranto + about 25 guys make up the class. woo!)
Per. 3-Choiirrr. (tons of friends. love it. i dont want to be moved tho! she cant make me!)
Per. 4-Math. ehh. its alright. least i know what im doing x)
Per. 5-yearbook. its always so exciting in that class. the people in it make it oh soo amazing.
Per. 6-OPEN! i LOVE it. i can walk my friends to their 6th. and go to the library to do hw. and just relax for one period. its uh-mazing.
Per. 7-CHEM! with mrs duran, fav teacher. + my best friend. and elyse. and bri. and wyatt. and tyler. and bekah. i couldnt have asked for a better class.

my friends are great :] well most of them anyways.
haha. take one day at a time..and go from there..

Crying.

I don't know why i just cried.
Were they happy tears he's in heaven. or sad tears that he's gone D:

idk. but i definitely..just let 'em go.
and it felt good.
ive got 46 more times to go this year.. lmao.

i was sad he was gone but not in tears cause i wasnt real close to him.
but then i watched this video: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rVySFnDssjA
and it brought me to tears..
i know a few people who have passed away very close to me. and no one knows what that feels like until you feel it personally and emotionally.
if u have both ur parents. all ur siblings. and all ur friends. be thankful you still do. and dont complain. they could be swept away right out of the blue.

these tears felt good. and im glad to have let them out finally <33 RIP all of you up there in heaven. and i hope ur watching over and protecting us all down here who love and miss you.

Thankyou (:

I did it.
She claps in the background.
Thank you best friend. I needed that.
Its going to help a lot.

I also love that when i didn't have someone to talk to. My friend called me and made me feel so much better. talked on the phone w/ her for like a half hour. (:

then i was gonna go to bed early. that didn't happen ;P
Best friend called and talked for two hours.
I'm so happy.
And i bought myself a Nikon DS SLR 3000 camera today. With my own money $$ <3

Life could not get any better than this.

New Year.

3 more hours and it will be 2010 :D
2009..was..like..so...nothing. it was empty. nothing exciting happened.
It did however, bring me much closer to some people and im glad that happened :]

So 2010,
bring me my permit (:
bring me an amazing sweet 16.
bring me my liscence.
bring me a nice small car that i will love.
bring me a safe year of happiness.
bring me closer to my best friend and create me some more.
bring me a relationship instead of hookups and heart break.
bring me to be a better person.
bring me into a sixteen year old looking teenager who has a good time.
and bring me to getting kissed on new years eve when the ball drops.


I'm ready for you 2010. Here i come.

Picture Blog x)

Sometimes..im SHY. when i meet new people.
lately ive felt shy. and not myself.
but at the same time i feel more confident. in front of cameras. in front of new people. with compliments. awkward situations. they may make me shy. but im overcoming them. i'm starting to become comfortable with myself. and sing for people. talk more on the phone. have more sleepovers. come out of my shell and back to who i used to have fun being.



So i've learned that goodbyes will always hurt. Pictures -->

NEVER replace having been there, memories good or bad will bring tears, and words can never replace those feelings..



This is why its great having a best friend :)










<3
Our friendship never breaks or bends..so that's why i call you my best friend :)

Christmas EVE.

What a weird christmas eve i've had xD

umm..started out great! braved the mall at 10am with my mom. barely got a parking spot THAT early. RI-DIC-UH-LOUS. got a new phone case! zebra (: made me think bak to how glad i am, im not that persons friend anymore. she controlled me. "zebra is my thing" NO ITS NOT. lmao. did u invent the pattern. NO. so just, NO. haha. im proud of myself for standing up to her.
i also got socks o.O and new flannel sheets for my bed. woot! so now i wont be so cold when i go to bed.
and everything was going great until my dad was admitted to the ER and has to stay there overnight. GREAT. but he's coming home tomorrow! :] and its CHRISTMAS. im 15 1/2. ALMOST 16 and bc its christmas tomorrow...i CANT sleep. haha. im like tired..but not. ughhh..

i did DO the traditional open one present on christmas eve. it was from my grammy engle. she's uh..wat 90? like seriously. she is. and she got me an urban zebra bag. pretty cute. and some other small things. she did pretty good this year. and i need to write to her. shoot! she wants to know whats going on at school and life. haha. this letter may be like 10 pages. but i can put it short and sweet into one (: love you grammy!

um. im gonna try to go to bed..if thats POSSIBLE :]]